What is it? Comfort is the feeling of security, warmth, easiness, subtlety, etc. We long for these types of feelings and when someone or something gives us this, we latch on unconsciously. And the clasp is so strong, that releasing those clutches couldn’t be pried by the jaws of life.
Inadvertently, this makes us stale, old, tired, zombie-like and even down right, boring. When you’re so used to something, you fear change. As contradictory as this might sound, I’m the kind of person that welcomes change. Yet there are things in my life that I couldn’t/haven’t changed and I finally fear I’m becoming the same type of person I never wanted to be – man who fears change.
So what am I going to do? Well, the man with a strategy for everything is ready to tell you: I don’t have a fucking clue.
Every now and then people get stuck with the way they feel, what they’re doing, life and its routines, etc. And so, people opt and spring for a change. Well, I simply don’t know what I want to do to “change” my current situation in life.
Well what am I talking about? Many things really. Financial, Career, Health/Fitness and yup, my LifeStyle. There’s no particular order, but it’s clear that I’m looking for a drastic change in all of them. Financially, I’m doing good. Better than some, but far behind others. I know I shouldn’t beat myself up over this and I’m not, but it takes time to accept that I’ve gotten this much on top of my finances. So kudos to me.
But let’s move on to Career: I work on Wall Street, for one of the largest firms in the nation, heck, the world when it comes to Banking – Morgan Stanley. I’m a Tech Analyst and have been here for almost 5 years….as a consultant. That’s right, not even an employee. I told the woman in my life yesterday that “I think I don’t want to work IT anymore”. Sure, that’s where the money is and bla bla, but I’m just not….fulfilled, happy, proud or secure with what I am doing in IT. I’ve been doing it for years and I’ve yet to show anything for it besides a long resume. It’s not enough, to me. But beyond that, it’s not my true passion. I was tagged in a post by her and it reads
“The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle…..”
Have I really done that? Have I really just settled with what I have and not sought what I want? The rest of the quote reads
“….As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.”